Weather's Hot Hot as hot as ME..
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Just Kidding.
Well, just back from 4 days trip to phuket.
The thai ppl were really friendly and helpful.
Saw a number of 'chicken' & 'Ducks' on the street too. LOL
Elephants were cute and visited temples and shopping spree.
Overall, it was a enjoyable trip and i would love to go there again someday in the future, hopefully with babygirl.
Sometime i thought, You're the gift from heaven.
You're an angel to me, your smile brightens the dark aura around me.
And most importantly your love enables and give me the ability to walk on any bad path..
You're no other than the one i love, i miss and i need, sarah bte mustaffa, my babygirl.
WITH EVERY GLIMPLISE OF HOPE IN GETTING TO SEE HER,AGREED TO GO FOR WORK AND EVEN WOKE UP EARLY HOPING THERE WAS A CHANCE FOR BREAKFAST WHEN E FEVER IS STIL LRUNNING, COUGH AND FLU IS KILLING. DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I'M ALWAYS TRYING TO OVERSTRETCH MYSELF TO BE THERE EVEN WHEN I'M TOO WEAK TO. I JUST WANTED TO SEE YOU EVEN THOUGH IT'S SOLELY ON MY PART ONLY. HOW I WISH YOU WERE HERE, I MISS YOU, IF ONLY YOU COULD TALK NICER TO ME. ILY.
so one sided.. that i'm tired..
i felt it's always just me and my initatives...
that love of ur yours seem so far..
all i get for all the things i do is...
scolding, temper and cold shoulder from you..
i'm at a loss all the time...
and i'm at a lost now..
it's not sth i wish to do... but.. i had to..
hoping.. i'll actually be of any significant to you..
and you would hold me back..
but i guess not..
bcoz.. you've never had...
you jus pushed me away...
imy but i guess.. it's jus me............................................
I wish time could stop at 11:59pm today,
and hope tomorrow never comes..
Tomorro could well be a difficult day for me!
Vocational Assessment at Hendon camp..
I still remember when i opened the mindef letter last thurs,
I was trembling... lol..
I thought they were going post me le..
First thing i saw was the BIG letters: ENLISTMENT follow by, Feb 2,2010?
Chua Sai SIOL!?!! thought i go in so fast! LOL
But well.. it wasnt.. BUT.. sth worse!! -.-
VA at a camp belonging to the COMMANDOS and GUARDS!!!
Wth.. cant imagine that day coming!!!
early wake ups.. pt.. no freedom.. no family..
AND NO BABY GIRL!!!!
was hesitating for a long time! (3 days is like 3 years k!)
Even thought of chao keng, act si ah gua, act restless.. blah blah.. on the day.
Some serious thinking had me hesitating again..
I wont want to act lik a sissy.. just imagine the commandos looking at me ( X.x) ..
and no point acting restless and chao keng bcoz they might jus know..
SO.. i decided...
I've got to find sth meaningful to do..
I've been restless... for.. far far far too long..
I've been strongest in fitness before..
yet i've fallen.. from the top to the bottom..
I cant believe i failed my 2.4km run this year..
I've nvr even gotten a B for it not to say fail..
Just like a fat bird.. ate too much.. slept and eat too much... being restless too long..
but i'm no bird.. hahaha.. and i hate bird shit!!
Therefore..
I've got to step up.. getting older... lao le!!!
Time to think abt the future...
I hope the strict discipline and tough training can train me into a tough person..
SO, i could endure any sort of tough situation ahead after Ns..
I think baby knows wad i mean..
Even though it sound abit silly and stupid to say all this now..
But for me, i want the future to be bright...
and that include you(the one who stole my mickey heart) being in it..XD
so dont run ar!! i going to tie you with metal chains!!=X
i need to strive.. strive strive strive strive....
Therefore, i will give my best in everything i do now..
I'll give my best in my VA tomoro.. i'm mentally prepared for the worse..
Hope my ncc experience can be of abit help for my VA tomoro..
Wish me luck uh!
lalalala..
YOU SAW THE MOON THESE FEW DAYS!?!!?
SO BIG AND NICE!!
LIKE in a movie!!!
good for couples night...
hahaha...
so baby where can we have ours?
=D
wad a boring post...
WAHAHA!!
Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way
Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait
Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness
Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be
Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled
And when the path comes to an end
I hope we can say from within
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within
Happy 14th months... baby girl
Today marks the end of exams and the start of holidays!
Holiday it may be.. but i still got CAT =(
Got to start study harder..
And i'm pretty sure..
baby will always be there to support me.
11 months.. strong and still going..
Thanks for everything..
I know i've let you down at times..
I wanna overcome all that now..
i love you and here is where i want you to stay for as long as you can..
(=
I miss you.
Every sec, every minute, every hour..
I cant stop having you in my mind..
I dont hate you, yet words being spoken dont describe how i truly feels..
It's too late..
I cant take whatt's been said even though i wished i could.
but.. i guess.. i no longer stands a place in ur heart..
I'm so depressed that i cant do anything..
But, you could still chat with frens happily and go out, everything seem so easy to let go for you.
Maybe this just show how much i stand in ur heart now..
Many years ago i said a sentence i never meant it to a girl and she left me..
4 yrs later the same thing happens again with another girl.
This time it hurts even more..
I've never done a thing right since 4 yrs ago.
It seem like it's the end.
Words cant describe..
i misses you but every answer from you from today's conversation and post & songs from ur blog tells me a verdict..
it's over.. you dont love me anymore..
Take care and i wish you happiness..
ily.
with a heavyheart i bid farewell to the girl i love most...
For you are the gf i love most ever..
